Sometimes
you go through periods where you lose sense of what inspires you. You
can’t find happiness in the simple things, even though you try to.
Everything feels a bit negative and you truly don’t feel like doing
anything but laying in a dark room in bed watching movies all day.
Getting dressed is an effort, and absolutely nothing seems to make
you feel better. Struggling with depression and anxiety has always
been an issue for me and sometimes it can be hard to drag yourself
out of it. You feel guilty for feeling badly even though you do not
fully understand what it is exactly that is making you feel down. You
just do and you have lost your energy and there is no source of
anything good. I mean there are some days that just seem like a
complete waste because I have accomplished none of the things that I
was suppose to get done, before I know it I look outside and it is
dark and I just wonder how the time passed so quickly and what I was
even doing. Then I realize that I do want to change and there are
always the possible choices of medication or talking to a therapist
but I hope to reach a point where I don’t have to do those things
to start to feel good. Springtime is here and I feel like its time to
pull myself out of this slump and really feel on top and in control
of the things around me.
