Time For A Change

Sometimes you go through periods where you lose sense of what inspires you. You can’t find happiness in the simple things, even though you try to. Everything feels a bit negative and you truly don’t feel like doing anything but laying in a dark room in bed watching movies all day. Getting dressed is an effort, and absolutely nothing seems to make you feel better. Struggling with depression and anxiety has always been an issue for me and sometimes it can be hard to drag yourself out of it. You feel guilty for feeling badly even though you do not fully understand what it is exactly that is making you feel down. You just do and you have lost your energy and there is no source of anything good. I mean there are some days that just seem like a complete waste because I have accomplished none of the things that I was suppose to get done, before I know it I look outside and it is dark and I just wonder how the time passed so quickly and what I was even doing. Then I realize that I do want to change and there are always the possible choices of medication or talking to a therapist but I hope to reach a point where I don’t have to do those things to start to feel good. Springtime is here and I feel like its time to pull myself out of this slump and really feel on top and in control of the things around me.